Today is my birthday and I feel really older than last days.But I don't know why I have this feelling.I think it's a good feelling for me. Nietzsche says: " Before you can reach to the top of a tree and can understand the flowers blossoming there, you will have to go deep to the roots, because the secret lies there.And the deeper the roots go, the higher the tree goes." So the greater your longing for understanding, for cosmic consciousness-because that is the ultimate lotus, the lotuse paradise-then the further you will have to go to the deepest roots in the darkest underground. And the way is only one: Call it meditation, call it awareness, call it watchfulness-it all comes to the same: that you become more alert, first about your conscious mind, what goes on in your conscious mind....And it is a beautiful experience. It is really hilarious, a great panorma.